chrisshee

 

Quoted from our beloved PM Pak Lah,

“LISTEN – Heed what the people say and correct your
mistakes”

"Tell me the truth", I assume that they’ll gladly look into
our recommended solutions for better services and improvements if sensible.

Let’s talk about our KTM scenario, good work at first for
having such economic commuter service and the gradual improvements I personally
see thus far after being a loyal public transport user since secondary school. Specifically
I think the commuters are more punctual lately, if not just because my last few
encounters were so? Lucky me then?? And another thing worth applause is the
mini washrooms I noticed added to a few stations that have no public washrooms.
 

Problem? Is there any? Well we should have taken notice of
the traffic in/ on train and train stations during the peak times. Is anything
done to solve the problem? Perhaps it’s not a problem to you. But isn’t a
developing nation supposed to develop more effective and efficient services for
the public? And have it done ASAP! Cause that’s how we improve! Instead of
looking at the LIMITATIONS (hereby the costs, and strictly costs, and being
contented with what we now have), look at the POSSIBILITIES! And if you (the
governmental officer in charge of KTM engineering plans) are about to be turned
off now, (probably suggesting/ presuming  that I’m just another demanding-idiot who’s
going to rage without the technical know-how’s of train engineering and related
matters), think again. Maybe I’m not an engineer, but how many company CEOs are
people who are technically-superior or technical-experts in their line of
businesses but CREATIVE individuals who are able to THINK OUT OF THE BOX and
INSPIRE people to BELIEVE in their visions? And mind you, I am an accounting
student, I think about costs and benefits too.

Okay perhaps I have overrated them (the CEOs). And yes, I may
not (as yet) be the charismatic leader these company-CEOs handsomely portrayed
themselves, but below are just a few (perhaps practical) solutions to the above
question. At least we can’t deny that these “nerdy” or “jack-of-no-traits” bunch
of thinkers (I don’t mean CEOs here but people like me who has yet worth
listening to) did INSPIRE the specialists and experts in related industries to
think again and sometimes produce unbelievable things! Well this is what I call
the “EXPERT SYNDROME”. When you are too expert in something, you tend to notice
too many limitations in the area that eventually might blur your foresight from
breaking out of the box (BREAKTHROUGH) and bringing the unlikely ALIVE!

1. Add extra cabins. Cabins with LOWER COSTS. Perhaps
open air cabins. Empty cabins with no seats but all stands with arm-rests. Perhaps
you can consider demolishing some current cabins and replace them without seats
but arm-rests to cut costs and add capacity. (I’m sure most people wouldn’t
mind because the crucial thing is transportation and convenience, NOT comfort
or “luxury”, taking into consideration the ticket fare users are paying. It’s
cheap, what more do you expect?! That’s what we call no-frills benefits! So get
off your asses for senior citizens and the needy ones! That’s the RIGHT set of
MALAYSIAN attitudes! Not just “Malaysia BOLEH” nonstop when we are all lackadaisical!)

2.  Equip KTM
stations with state-of-the-art sophisticated time and traffic tracking system,
if you have the budget. Look into the long term, if more people cater KTM
service, that means more traffic, more income also from ADVERTISERS, business
people (they might move their businesses near your stations instead of just you
having to plan around them thanks to the crowd you encouraged to come by
catering your service!) and thus more expansion prospects!

3. Introduce KTM member cards for loyal customers. I
noticed you have fast-track cards now. Including say benefits of card members
to enter air-conditioned cabins as opposed to open-aired cabins during peak
periods. As for the price for it, I don’t think higher charges is necessary because
train service is in the logistics industry whereby your costs are mostly fixed
costs, so as long as people are willing to buy/ pay everyday tickets, you
should be happy about that. (Beware if you charge more, you might stir rage
amongst the lower income group, and I’m definitely with them against you then because
that means DISCRIMINATION against the poor! Lol! =P) details of your member
benefits I’ll leave to your office talents to brainstorm and make us proud, I’m
sure government officers are more than capable to come up with brilliant ideas
and do amazing stuffs! (I’m just a nobody.)

4. Inspired by my text book reading on allocating
capacity by attempting to change demands for fixed-capacity businesses by
either reservations or appointments. (Well if AirASIA can make it, why can’t
KTM?) I think we can change demand of frequent travelers by promising them
punctual train arrivals and departures, more capacity through added cabins or
trains (well I don’t know if you can add more trains, cause that’s a little
technically-challenging for me and I don’t want to ‘try to be too smart’
courtesy of my dad’s remarks on me many times =P), and the KTM member card
benefits! How can that be possible? Think. What if you can arrange that
nonmembers depart during hours from 6am-7.30am for morning office rides whereas
members get to have the privilege of taking later trains that can promise on
time arrivals. First-come-first-serve basis for getting limited member cards if
seats limited of course. So they have the benefit of getting up later but
ending up effectively on time! That’s just one of the suggestions. The rest again
I’ll leave them to your office to impress us, the public!

Okay for now. More business ideas and problem solving ideas
next round same column.

I’m chris, and thanks for reviewing, do share your comments
with me through email, I’m sure critics will be invaluable to everyone’s
learning.

Ps: please don’t criticize too mercilessly okay? Cause everyone
needs positive encouragements to improve and possibly do wonders in the future,
right? And please be professional at your critics, please don’t be personal. Thanks.
=P

Christopher Shee (chrisshee@yahoo.com)

 

Laying low..

Clock’s ticking..

Gulping for air..

Consider reformatting my brain..

Overloading..

Contradictions..

Over-analysis..

Thinking for others..

What about for me?

Sharing?

Who genuinely recognizes me?

Who’s manipulating me?

Counting the value, the worth..

Rationalizing..

Who am I?

Boastful teenage individuals..

Association..

Networking..

Genuine friendship..

Happiness vs. material satisfaction..

Virtual reality vs. reality checks..

Short-circuitry.

Who am I?

Parents, family, people I associate with?

What defines me?

My belief?

My self-belief?

Peoples’ endorsements and recognitions?

True supporters?

Critics?

Politics?

Life?

Inspirations..

Emotions..

Feelings..

Leadership..

Self-image..

Visions..

Delusions of grandeur..

Dreams..

Creativity sources, the 3 sources..

Nature, nurture, nightmares..

Talents..

Where’s the nurturing part?

Who am I?

What am I?

Where am I?

When do I..

What will I?

How many of “I”s?

How could I?

What was I?

21 years old..

Nearly coming to an end..

Does anything matter?

Did anything matter?

Will anything matter?

Did I matter?

Do I matter?

Will I matter?

Who am I?

Delusions of grandeur..

Illusions of possibilities..

Visions of tomorrows..

Dreams of the unspoken..

Premonitions vs. opportunistic visions..

Who am I?

May 6^th babies..

Dream realizors?

Inspirationist?

The questions..

The mysteries..

The environmental factors..

The circulating ideas and philosophies..

The impacts..

The experiences..

The network of beliefs..

Human contact..

Open-minds..

Matrices of philosophies..

The contact point.

The contact area..

Priority of agendas..

The making of decisions..

The roads not taken..

Definition of “I”?

Of eyes..

Who am I?

Judgments..

Prejudgments..

Discriminations..

Self-image..

Confidence..

Energy level..

Trusts..

Wisdom..

Knowledge..

Background..

Defining changes..

Creations..

The past, the present, and the future..

The effects and truth of myopia..

Who am I?

Me, you, he, she, it, we, they, the unspoken, the unseen..

What are you thinking?

What am I thinking?

What are they thinking?

What is it thinking?

Should I even think?

Should I have rationalized and analyzed?

Who do you think you are?

What are you projecting of yourself?

Who am I to you?

I believe..

I don’t believe..

Why do and don’t I?

I chose to lay low..

Or I simply fail to rise up?

Who am I?

 

-my world-my art-my visions-my network-my life-my mystery-my
birth-my future-my perceptions-

What is perceived of me?

I am Christopher Shee Kay Shen, the May 6^th creature.

I wished upon the sky, not for celebration, but recognition
and believe. I wish to go through the 1^st day of my 22^nd
year alone. Inspire me.  

Hey all!

Loads of biz ideas flooding my mind lately.. Seems like I’m
going nuts soon. Why? I totally couldn’t sleep last night. My creative juices
couldn’t stop secreting and I’m overly excited over every single one of them. Well
they are my babies, why would I not? Among the things that I’m most excited
about is that I really hope to be able to work with our great Mr Ng Khai Lee on
some biz ideas if he ever finds this nobody here a somebody worth taking onto
his creative team. I don’t know if that would have the slightest possibility
but I’d never felt so attached to anything contributive to the nation, and
possibly to the world and at the same time personally believe having promising
profitability in mind. Best yet so passionate I just want so badly to take
actions on them and making them happen. Courtesy to youthsays.com. Here’s a
challenge I’m giving myself now, “one
practical biz idea a day, keeps all Malaysians societal inefficiencies away.”
Challenging my mind to its limitation, hopefully this will gradually make my
vision for a website portal possible (that’s the key thing I hope to work on
with our talented Mr Ng and the rest). Details on the web portal another day. 

Anyway getting to the inspiration I was saying. Let’s have
ourselves in check of certain “problems” we are facing in our beautiful
country. Don’t the public rubbish bins always disturb us all? Aren’t them just a
pain in the eye and nose? Even for mouth (well when you decide to stop breathing
that split second passing by the “well-maintained” rubbish bins, and
instinctively decide to let your mouth do the breathing, okay.. aren’t you
introducing more germs into your body? Lol!)..

So the brief proposal I’m suggesting will look something
like,

Problem:  poorly managed public rubbish
bins.

Proposed
solution: having corporate advertisements
on public rubbish bins mandated by government ruling

Why? Well it’s a
win-win solution for me.

1. You (the corporate companies) get to advertise in
public (mass coverage man! Imagine the number of rubbish bins you can sponsor
and maintain voluntarily then) and practice your CSR!

2. You (the government) do not have to go through
the trouble if you can’t find the best balance to keep check of both public
benefits and the maintenance costs eating into our public funds. Why bother if
the capitalists (corporate companies) can do a better job than you at a more
cost-effective and beneficial way?

3. We (the public) feel refreshed! No more struggle
on our eyes, nose or mouth!

Proposal Details: the
mandated rules!

1. First come first serve basis. The first company
to come forward to pick the public spots and take the number of “bins” get what
they want.

2. Did I mention it’s mandatory for all public
listed companies to do it?

3. Don’t worry about them not maintaining their
bins, coz their corporate images are at stake.

4. Refer to rule number 1-3. Because you (the
corporate companies) don’t want to lose out. Locations and corporate image matter,
right?

My inspirations? Someone talked about mandatory
rules which I never liked, coupled with one of my weird vision during the
night, I was seeing little coca-cola cans thrown against the HUGE coca-cola can
you see in Genting. How cool is that? Please do feedback and comment!

Future plans: I think if this works out, the
government should be eyeing on the public washrooms next. Imagine outside every
toilet having this comment box and immediately above that box you see this cool
label/ decorative plate “courtesy to (your respective company managing the
washroom)” and your website advertised below.

Ps: hey
don’t copy my idea if you think it appears cool to you okay? I’m sure you don’t
wana miss out more ideas from me, do you? Hope I’m beginning to deserve your
recognition by now? Hmm..  by the way, I’m
not aware if this happens in other nations now, (hopefully not) but I certainly
hope we are leading this trend! Malaysia boleh!

Inspired,

Chrisshee*
(thanks to youthsays.com and the incredibly amazing peepz hanging out here)

hey all, too bad ideas.com and inspirations.com are taken. i was thinking about a cool site..

imagine a site inspirations.com.my or inspirations.org.my, where there are leading malaysian creative experts moderating the site by picking and posting top 10 malaysian inspirational works everyday!

i’m sure if the products showcased there are great, traffic will multiply with light speed! it would be even cooler if comments are allowed but categorized into comments from the pro and comments from the public!

btw i wonder how websites earn their bucks other than from advertisers? and are the bucks gonna be huge and "clean"? i wonder how thecicak.com make profits and if anyone has any idea, how much they are making, can that be shared too? i know it may sound like a trade secret, but what is youthsays.com for if we can’t provide that sound info/ insights to aspiring leaders and entrepreneurs?

btw, check out ideas.org.

This is a superb book that has sold million copies in the
world and I’m in no surprise if it is not going to hit into the Malaysian market.
Why? We all know.. However for those with serious religious beliefs, I will
discourage you from reading on in case you are not willing to face this
worldwide controversial issue as yet.

Don’t worry, I’m not encouraging any rage against any
religions here but as a leisure reading that could possibly prove worthwhile. (And
I’m definitely not inviting rage) Why? Because I believe most of us have been “living
in a box” (brainwashed) by many less mainstream or other belief systems that
could be restraining us from being open-minded and creative with possibilities and
discoveries of our past, current, and future lives.  Please note that the above belief system I referred
to does not specifically refer to the moralistic religions most of us uphold
now. On a contrary, I refer it more to some controversial belief systems that
are less adaptive and receptive of (or more extreme) the disparity now hotly
happening and debated around the world (thanks to Professor Richard Dawkins).

Here are one of the stronger points suggested by Dr Richard
Dawkins in an interview, revised according to my interpretation, an atheist is
capable of living a full life because he or she is not led by the belief that
there’s a second life after death, which means he should reasonably live a more
complete and satisfied life!

Other hot points I understood include atheists can better
rationalize logics with scientific reasons instead of resorting to god’s
decisions, which could prove more viable in today’s reasoning-based and
competitive life. Atheists are not restricted by certain god’s consent that
might not in every situation be proven as the best solution or action. For instance,
some strictly religious people might not tell even a practical or sincere lie
out of benevolence. I don’t think I need to give further examples on that.

Even though I’m a free thinker, I too believe in the Karma
thing, or whatever it’s called upheld by almost all religions.

“Thy shall not do things that thy hope not from others unto
others.”

There are loads more hot debates on it out there, do feel
free to click on the following suggested link,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DaOVPaYf780&feature=related.

Do allow your mind open for reasonable critics which might
positively influence people around us. But do stand firmly on the grounds of
your moral principles and values too to make the right decisions for
yourselves. For instance, I might not find the kinky sex ideas by atheists
appealing if that goes against my moral values. But that doesn’t mean that I have
to go against them! Unless they are harming me or the society in any intruding
fashion. And atheists are definitely not by nature evil.

On a contrary I do respect all sorts of mainstream religions
positively impacting people’s lives and moderating the society out there. I’m
happy that we Malaysians are living in such a peacefully moderated country
where religions are not forced upon any individuals and at the same time widely
respected.

The reason I review on this controversial issue is because I
was unpleasantly shocked by the US little daily happenings in their little Christian
towns despite their vastly publicized democracy and freedom, which definitely
opened up my mind.  Check out this clip
that opened up my mind. I didn’t know how discomforting even common religious
actions can have their toll on nonbelievers until I see this clip (The Price of
Atheism). Never educate your kids that people who believe in differing belief
systems from you are bad or evil. It will come back to you in the cycle if
everyone does so. As a result, it might cause minor discriminations and
collectively into devastating wars to your peaceful lives!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTRDRP2n4Sk&feature=related

I personally believe that fellow Malaysians should learn
from the Americans’ mistakes and be more thoughtful and considerate as we
progressively develop and change our nation. Religion should never rule a
country or a person’s life but instead rationale and logic coupled with sincere
moral beliefs or goodwill as fundamentals. Learn from the American’s wisdom,
the America not only protects people of different religions but from religions
(the Atheists or free thinkers).

That’s all for now, do feel free to drop by your comments.  

tai’d just been on my first overseas vacation and there’s a little something that inspired me. i believe that hygiene and cleanliness is 1 of the most important factor in determining how developed a country is. this is observed after my vacation to taiwan, i was impressed by the spotless washrooms even in their suburbans! then comes a documentary about india’s humongous development during my flight back from taiwan in china airlines, it underscores the success of foreign malls into india by focusing on providing a hygienic and clean shopping environment and products with compatible pricing!

and there’s this entrepreneurial idea that sparked me. it’s about engaging into a cleaning experts and consultant service idea whereby we liaise with foreign experts in the field and the government to together make our first step towards our vision 2020. ever heard of the reality show from new zealand, "How Clean is Your House?" imagine getting chemist experts to host variety of workshops to our public cleaners? educate the public about the vital role of hygiene and cleanliness by including respect for the cleaners, so as to produce a league of cleaning staffs and agents that possess a sense of ownership for their jobs. have the cleaners undergo workshops and provide them with the necessary hygiene equipments to first protect them from what we widely believe as nasty dirts.

i believe that it’s not our laziness or don’t-care-a-damn attitude that makes our country not as clean, but our lack of exposure and knowledge to economically and practically deal with dirts and unhygienic exposures. refer to the reality series, "How Clean is Your House" and see how the experts do the cleaning using practical day-to-day economical items such as even soy-sauce! you won’t believe it until you see it.

so my point is, engage into a Cleaning Experts and Consultants Service business and liaise with government for malaysian’s wealth.

how do you earn then? the public fees. open few expert outlets throughout malaysia at least in the few major states kl, penang and jb. allow public visits for free cleaning consultations but collect fees for cleaning services.

for the rest of the proposal, you’ll figure it out. i think i wrote too much for a forum comment.. hope it sounds cool to you! =P

hey i was day dreaming at my reflection in the mirror after brushing up, brushing my hair and err just not impressed with my hair.. and then the next thing i see is a gorgeous indian lady walking pass me (everything happened in my head, virtual). and something struck me!

it sounds like an opportunity. i’m not sure if this business idea is already out there hitting india’s market but i see it happening in my mind!

base on my observation, most indians have this gift from god of having solid facial features most people admire, but the downside i see is (definitely not the skin color, i’m not a racist, i actually like tanned-skin), most of them are still living with the same old traditional haircut, which i think is a waste coz they have all the best features, look at their adorable kids!

and then this picture comes in, we have oversupply of hairstylist in malaysia (which i personally think so too..).

what if someone is able to gather a league of talented malaysian hairstylists to make their mark in the indian hair industry, asian hairstylists? (the japanese cuts!)i think the western hairstylists should have ventured into the indian hair market, coz they never misses even a slightest opportunity.

imagine if these asian hairstylists can venture over there, pick a few typical good-looking indians and give them a hair make-over for free, stir the market for demand. perhaps you couldn’t earn much from the cuts at first, especially per cut. but imagine the scale, the numbers of head you could be styling. and then the portion of one of the biggest growing market on earth you are impacting, earn through the numbers of walk-in customers you work on, and make it big!

and i personally believe the big bucks does not come from the initial styling and cut, but in long term, as you start to make your hair fashion and styling impact in the indian industry,coupling with their steady economical growth, it’s time you introduce your line of fashionable accessories (asian style)and related aesthetic products into their market. what makes you sell by then is the fact that you have built your foundation in the indian market by the mass you changed and influenced through your economical but stylish haircuts. you don’t have to do much afterwhich, you are naturally their fashion idol by then.

oops, what if the japs are already there making their mark? haha! aiks! lost count of that, can we beat them? if we are more hardworking than them? the upside is, we know the indians better than them, coz we are malaysian, thanks to our indian friends here. and we are hardworkers too, and we can definitely speak better english than the japs! and we have nothing to lose but a great deal to make compared to the japs where they should already be complacent with what they have being in japan. just my opinion.

does it sound promising? hope so. please do share your opinions with me. thanks! >_<

“I worked my entire life; I fought so hard, I was exhausted,
reaching for a meaning that could justify my every action; only to find out
nothing made sense. Ending up laughing at my own miserable life.”

“Everything was pieces of the puzzle I created for the big
picture of my own life, everything was beautiful; until the day when you let me
down so hard I never had imagined it happening. Why? Why? I don’t understand. And
I never understood eversince. Nothing ever mattered eversince..”

“They were my babies, my entire life dedicated to the birth
of the great ideology I believe so deeply into. My perception, my world, my
distinguish point of view, but you said they are craps, rubbish, nonsense! All of
you, all of you that mattered to me.. And I accepted my existence as god’s
mistake..”

“The world was perfect, it was more beautiful than I ever
expected or wished upon the sky, but until the day when this event struck my
life. The world turned upside down in a split second, and everything changed
from then on. Everything justifies nothing. The natural cycle is as empty as it
was at the beginning of mankind. Everything shouldn’t have been anything but
nothing. It needs a drastic change. I just have to go against the mainstream.”

Sincerely,

The Beggar

 

It just came to my mind; somehow I see something I’d never
seen, everything virtual making its profound piece of puzzle in my head, trying
to fit into a place as though naturally made for it, and it appeared sensible
to me. I was shocked! It appears like a calling, and I know I have to blog on
it. The fact that there’s a little genius in every one of us given birth to on
earth. The only difference is when, where and how we express to the world, and
if we were ever given the nods and acknowledgement from any people that
mattered to us.

I didn’t know why, but my mind urged me to think deep into
the minds of the beggars. I didn’t know if they were thinking along the 4
patterns I felt strongly they might, but I knew there were some of them who
could be extraordinary awaiting to be discovered. Do you believe in me? Do you
believe in them?

I have a vision. If you see what I see, the world should provide
a center for all beggars to express themselves, have their thoughts or
expressions documented for studies. These people must have something very
distinct that we, the majority of the world has yet seen or understand (which I
sincerely believe is what made them gave up in life and chose to be a beggar as
an act of rebel to what they believe as injustice or so), which could probably be
the key that can unlock possibilities or unlimited inspirations that our world
now needs urgently. Believe you me, there are hidden talents or unspoken
visions in these minority of the world population that could be keys to an
unlimited future.

Had I convinced you? The fact that one-of-a-kind leaders are
usually not typical individuals but authentic individual to his or her
distinctive belief. Perhaps they lack the means to convey their messages,
perhaps they are placed in the wrong place at the wrong time which could prove
an asset in the other end of the world at a different time.

I can visualize a World Social Organization established for
beggars all around the world, helping to reshape the future by offering the
beggars special tools for them to express their inner passion or world visions.
Let them play with paintings and arts, numbers, figures, words, puzzles, games,
natural items, different type of resources, and every little thing an artist or
a scientist can think of potentials but stuck due to lost of any key puzzles. These
people could probably be the inspiring key to uncover the mystery the world has
fought so long without them joining force. Because we had long neglected their
roles in our community.

Make them help shape and contribute to our community and be
a part of our fellowship citizen. Honor the undiscovered talents the world
might have missed. The reason I see these people as highly distinguish people
is because of their courage to go against the norm and insist in opting the
last thing a reasonably rationale person will ever consider a solution. They might
have something even Einstein missed out on, which could prove the key to a
breakthrough. Chances are slim but I have faith in this neglected population.

Help make the world a better place to live in. Build a
constructive facility and environment for them to express their lifetime
concern that we have long been neglected by the world. The medium class
ordinary has the luxury of accessing internet to express themselves and get
exposed to the world in every way possible at least through blogging and
surfing, but the beggars are not.

Can you make a nobody a somebody? Help change lives,
together we create sky of hopes.   

Ps: I hope my little blog inspires you in
any ways. If I’d inspired you in any ways, please do share with me what you
think about it. thanks a lot for support. Even if you are strongly against my
work, do share with me your reasons for coming against my vision. Thanks. I do
appreciate a lot.

At last I blog again..
When everything fails me..
When the past reminds me of how it never stopped haunting me..
My confidence fell apart..
Chain reaction of failure by failure..
I so wished I am not alone..
Not standing on my own 2 foot..
Not falling when everybody is climbing..
Perhaps leaning on a familiar shoulder or back..
Holding a comforting pair of palms..
Hugging a warm soul..
Have you tell me how great I could be..
When love was everywhere..
Now I’m all by myself..
Even if everybody is around me..
I tried to be stronger..
Yes I tried real hard..
But without knowing the truth of the real strength..
I was naïve thinking that I was smart..
I was plain arrogant confronting the truth of life when everybody follows the rules..
I ended up living my own failures..
Probably I will grow out of it..
Probably Domino’s effect ends nowhere..
Where will I be after this series of disasters..
Will I soar against the winds and tides, or sink into the deeper end of hell..
I don’t need anyone..
Because I fail to understand the limit of reliance and love..
I thought I was happy..
Probably I was happy..
But when everything befalls upon me..
I learn a very true fact of reality..
I am as lonely as I was before birth..
My catastrophic 21 year old nightmare has yet ended..
Sometimes I hate truth and reality..
And I hate everybody around me who embraces them..
Regardless of what is being said or written..
I’m still a plain sheet of paper awaiting more to be learned of life..
I wished it was beautiful..
But I lost hold of comprehending the beauty of life itself..
I wished someone understands the position I’m standing now..
But sadly I am alone in this strange world of yours..
Digging deeper and deeper into the soils just to find more soils..
I hope I didn’t have to go through all these tough times all by myself..
But who on earth is ever going to understand me from bottom up..
Nobody..
I’m just a creep thus far..
A creep that doesn’t want to be a creep..
My 21-year-old is almost coming to an end..
I never knew it will be such a terrible year..
I will pick up my steps..
I will stand taller than ever after this.
The naivety of believing that the smartest person is the person whom has got to try nothing to achieve at something..
For 21 years plus I’d believed in such nonsense..
Just to prove myself a laughing stock..
When everybody is moving forward and upward..
I was resisting change and tempo..
I thought I was smart..
I really thought I was..
By going against the norm..
This semester again I failed..
I not only failed myself..
I failed my parents..
My family who love me so..
I failed to appreciate any friends..
All because I fear losing any of those I cared so much for..
I lost almost in every aspects of life at this stage of life..
I almost collapsed again..
In the little corner of my soul..
I shrunk into a tiny creep..
But on the outside people see me as a confident human..
I guess you will never understand the complex nature of my brain cells..
Sighs..
I shall move on..
And I shall gain at my current fucking failures and experiences!!!
Sometimes I wonder if there is a life guide teaching me how to live gracefully..
Afterall life isn’t as easy for a person who had never failed before during his teenage years and start failing nonstop eversince 19..
It really sucks..
Life, academics, friendships, relationships, passions, everything I failed at this age.
When everybody else graced!!!
Fuck you all!
Fuck you all!
I don’t mean to scold..
I am just really pressured by my endless failures.. 
Eversince 19 to 21 now..
Give me a break..

It sparked my head. From nowhere I noticed I want to have
fun and meet new people. But I didn’t know how to get the conversation started,
especially when Asians hardly move forward and say, “Hi, I think you are cute. Can
we be friends?”

So I was thinking, what if I can get my shirt do the talking?

Probably I can custom make a T-shirt with words printed on
it, with the front wording, “Hi stranger, I think you are cute.” And as I walk
by a person who was looking at the words, if he or she looks up after getting
attracted by the words, I shall smile and nod. Probably a little wink. I guess
people will be happy. Then we shall walk pass each other.

In case he or she finds it really fun, I have another 2
sentences on my back if he or she happens to look back again. “Yea I was referring
to you, doncha wana say hi?”

Walking like the wind. I’m sure it’s gonna be fun. Don’t you
think so? Putting a smile on a stranger’s face. Lifting hopes and creating life
to lives. Nobody hates to be praised, do anyone? What do you say?

Hehe. =)